~Blackdawn-70631

Just some short random post.
I'm horny as hell. God! All I can think about is d___ right now. Not a good combination either when I'm writing.

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Warning! Language ahead. I'm venting!!

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If you were to read my diary. Saved since I was about thirteen or so. You would read on multiple occasions of me wanting to be "left alone".
No, I'm not socially inactive. I am not mentally challenged. I just want to be left alone from time to time!
The reason being is that everything that comes out of everyone's mouth is my name: Christin (yes, that's my name), Christin, Christin, Christin . . .
Ever since I was a kid. Christin, where's this? Christin, where's that? What did you do with this (I.E. I have memory problems and people want me to put stuff somewhere, they aren't sure where either, then they ask me where I put it and I can't remember where I put it, then they get all upset with me. Duh, you fucking idiots, it is legally documented in freakin' doctor's papers THAT I HAVE MEMORY PROBLEMS. And they, the people who told me to put it away, know about my memory problem).
I try to ignore all this but it gets grounded into my ear even more so because I've been trying to ignore them.
For instance, a good example:
I was seventeen (25 now) and living with my Mom at the time. Me, my brother, step-dad, Mom and my friend were getting ready to go swimming, me and my friend were and done waiting on my bed. We're sitting there and the only thing coming out of my Mom's mouth is my name. She had called my name so many times that my friend and I look to each other, she smiles and starts singing, "Christinrelly, Christinrelly, do the dishes, do the laundry. They always keep her running." (quote/song from cinderella, when the mice are singing)
There was more to the song that she did but I really can't remember the rest of it.
I did think it was funny and did laugh out loud because it was true. Utterly true.

Another example: I just now walked in the house from work after driving for an hour, I sit down beside my husband on the bed because he is on the computer, he says he wants me to go out and get us something to eat. I say, "OK, what do you want?" I figured I'm just going to town which is only a ten minute drive. Then his Mom jumps in and is wanting what he is wanting, hamburgers.
OK. No big deal.
They want me to get hamburgers that's about 25 some miles away or so. I just drove by the road that this new burger place is on. It's out in the middle of no where in front of someone's house. A locally owned BBQ food joint place.
So I say I'm not going. Then it starts all up with my name again.
Uh, hello? If you want hamburgers from 25-some miles away. Get in your car and go get them. No one is stopping you. Why do i have to be the one?
And so now, everyone is pissed at me.
I wasn't even in the house for 30 minutes when everyone started fuming over crap that i wouldn't do for them.

I don't want push away from people. I would like to know what's going on in the world from time to time. But for a little while, just a little while . . . . LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!!!!!
DO SHIT ON YOUR OWN FOR A CHANGE!

Sincerely,
Blackdawn

And i know my Mood Emoticon says "Joy" but my comp is being a real boob today. Still fixing the settings.


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Yep, that's right. i got a brand spankin' new computer. Well, it's actually me and my husband's, but I'm the one who's setting it up and all since I'm the computer geek.

It's a Sony Vaio, Windows Vista Home Premium, Intel Core 2 Duo processor, 3GB of RAM, 500 GB of memory, plays Blu-ray Disc read/write HD optical drive and a NVIDIA GeForce 8400M GT GPU (the Graphics) and lets not forget that 22" LCD Screen. For those that have no idea what I'm talking about this is a slim and fit computer with a wirless keyborad and mouse with no tower, everything is built into the back of the screen. If it wasn't for my scanners printers, lite scribe burner and all, I would have a total of one wire to operate the entire computer.


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*Update - 4/21/08 - Bad news! Apparently Full Coverage with our insurance compnay doesn't mean squat. I'm getting stiffed with the Towing and medical bills. The insurance lady said it wasn't in our Policy, yet our policy states "FULL COVERAGE" The only thing they're actually covering is damage on the car, and we don't even know how that's gonna turn out. Someone said it was my fault, which i understand because i was the one who pulled out into the right-away, but when there was no traffic coming. No fines from the police or anything, they weren't even interested in me, yet I'm the one who gets blamed by the insurance companies. Guess this is America for ya. No one will stay behind ya and as soon as something bad happens, they tuck there tails and run, put the blame on you and stick you with the bill! Yeah, I'M PRETTY FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW!!!!*

*Update - 4/21/08 - Good news! Nothing is broken, it was just a sprained shoulder. Guess all the Calcium pills I have been taking paid off. Still have to go back this Friday for another checkup, but all in all, I'm OK to go back to work on Monday.*

* Update - those who wish to see the carnage; stay tuned. i'll be posting pictures of my husbands car that he took, i'll post either tomorrow or sunday. he got the digital cam and took pictures "for the memory" he called it. I might be posting sunday because he might take the camera to work tomorrow to show off my handy work. *

Well, sometime yesterday late afternoon i was in car wreck. A white truck just came out of no where and hit the front end of my husbands car. tore the front end of his car to shreds, did almost nothing to the truck. i guess the cops thought neither of us were at fault since to the me and the driver, and cops, we just came out of no where and collided so we were not fined. But, i had to pay for the tow then for medical bills afterwards. hit the left side of the car so i was thrown around quite a bit. badly bruised the left side of my left knee and really hurt my left shoulder from the door of the car hitting me. the doc said i may have a broken shoulder but still couldn't tell on the x-ray, so now i gotta wait three days and have my shoulder x-rayed again to see if anything is broken.
i really don't want to take any advice from a doctor who said my shoulder might be broken and didn't give me a sling. i had to ask for it. then ontop of it, take ib-profin which i am allergic to.
it is written down on his file that i'm allergic to pennicilin and advil. Pennicilin causes my body to swell like a balloon, was told next time i get it i could die and advil gives me asthma. That doctor tried prescribing me something that has the contents of advil in it and is stronger. i would have gone back for breathing problems.
the pharmacy lady at Freds apparently was smarter than the people at the doctors office. she asked what i was allergic to and i told her those two things and she was the one who told me about that. called the doctor back and he said that she was right. so now, i'm taking tylenol x-tra rapid release gels for my pin prick pains, and my head ache just won't go away. food would make it go away, but i just can't eat right now. i haven't eaten since about noon of yesterday.
hopefully insurance will be able to pay for something on our car, my medical bills and the towing exspenses being i was not at fault.
my typing may look a little weird because i'm typing with one hand.

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Not only did AVP: Requiem come out in theatres on Christmas, but it is also coming out this Tuesday, the 15th, my Birthday. Yep, my birthday is April the 15th, I'll be turning 25, and what better thing to do on my Birthday then buy AVP on it's first day as an "official" DVD and watch it. Sweet!

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